|Bradley and Isaiah being monkey boys!|
As I sat down to write this post, I got a notification from Melanie at Road to the Farm on Youtube that she had uploaded a video. Melanie also has Fibromyalgia and her video today was about trusting in God when we have flares/crashes and knowing that even when we get behind on things, He is there and will take care of us. Melanie and I have a lot in common. We both tend to push way too hard when we are having good days and then pay for it with crashes. Learning our limits is hard. I love how God orchestrated her posting her video at the same time that I was sitting down to write a post on this subject. I believe that His timing is perfect and that it was meant to be this way so that she and I could lift each other up and encourage one another as we walk this path. I am so thankful for Melanie being willing to share her life and struggles along with such good words from the Lord.
Our two oldest grandsons, Bradley and Isaiah, are coming to spend the afternoon with us today. They are a bundle of energy and a total delight. 😁 I love those boys beyond words and look forward to any time I can have with them. They are very aware that there are days when Grammie can't really play with them and that all hugs must be very gentle or they will hurt me. Today is one of those days. What I can do though on days like this is take them to the park and watch them play. I can cuddle up and read books with them or watch a favorite movie. That is what I choose to do...focus on what I can do with them and not what I can't. I want to build wonderful memories with them to last their and my entire lives. My own grandmother had some pretty serious health issues and was not able to play with me as a child, but I loved spending time with her. We would sit and talk outside in her yard, quietly read our books and share hugs and kisses. Spending the night with her was one of my favorite things to do. She and I had such a strong bond and could read each other's thoughts, even across the miles of ocean that separated us when I left Hawaii to go to college in Idaho. I want to build those kinds of bonds with my grandsons, all three of them.
Knowing that the little boys are coming today, I need to pace myself and be careful to limit my energy output this morning so that I am not totally worn out by the time I go to pick them up. I got a load of Jeff's laundry going when I first got up and then got the bread dough going in the Kitchenaid while my coffee maker brewed that wonderful elixir that I savor each and every morning. I divided the dough into bread pans and set that to rise in the oven and then took a break had my coffee. From there I folded a load of my laundry and then, instead of hanging out Jeff's laundry on the line to dry, I put it in the dryer. I knew I did not have the strength or energy to hang the big and heavy load out today, so the dryer it was. The bread dough had risen by this time so I got the bread baking and took another break to get this post going and to watch Melanie's video. I just got the bread out of the oven and it is now cooling on the counter, covered by a towel so that Doofy cat does not sample it. 😉 I still need to take a shower, get myself ready for the day and then take a quick trip down to the library to pick up some videos that are there on hold for me.
My muscles feel like they are burning in the back of my neck and at the top of my spine right now and the cartilage between my ribs are sore. I know that even with as little as I have done already, it may have been too much. I will be spending the rest of my time until I go and get the little boys taking it easy on myself. There are other things that I had hoped to get done today, but they will have to wait. My priorities today, given my limited energy are my grandboys, making bread for my hubby so he will have bread for sandwiches to take to work with him, and getting his laundry done. I refuse to feel guilty because I know that if I push myself too hard, I will not be able to enjoy my grandkids this afternoon and they are the most important "priority" in my life today.