My MIL passed away a little over the week ago and we found out by "accident". For those of you who have read my blog for a long time, you know that our relationship with her, Jeff's siblings and his father had been strained for years and then it became nonexistent.
Despite all of this, it still hurts to learn of her death. There are so many mixed emotions. The game playing still has continued by certain parties and Jeff and I want no part of it. My heart breaks for my husband, sons, and nieces, as well as for my FIL. I feel bad that Jeff's siblings have lost their mother, and my heart goes out them, but based on their past behavior, Jeff wants nothing to do with them at this time. I will support my husband in however he chooses to deal with this, and I will do the same for my sons.
I'm trying to deal with my own emotions too. They are all over the place including anger, hurt, feeling of past betrayal, pain and sorrow. I was deeply hurt by her and it is something that sent me into a huge spiral of depression, and I hit the lowest point I ever have in my life emotionally. Luckily my husband and my doctors were very supportive and got me the help that I needed through medication and counseling. I am so thankful to them all.
Anyway, that is why I have been absent. thank you all for understanding.