I'm sorry that I have not been responding to comments, checking email, etc.. I have some seriously warped maladaptive coping skills. I tend to shut down and withdraw for the most part when I feel like my headspace is not right. I fear bringing people down and honestly, my energy level at those points are reserved for doing things like working in the garden, doing things around the house, etc. . I've been flipping back and forth between trying to be positive and getting projects tackled here at home with a smile on my face and then having horrible sleepless nights or, if I get to sleep, having nightmares that leave me totally shaken. My dear hubby is trying to get things done, keep me safe, all the while working outside the home and dealing with the anxiety of possibly bringing the virus home to me. I'm doing all I can to try to NOT put any more pressure on him with my anxiety and fears. :(
I am hoping to be able to find a balance once again and get back to a more normal posting schedule. I do miss interacting with everyone, but at this point I am not even able to read other people's blogs much. The reality is that I am trying to keep myself as busy as I can around the house and then I wear myself out and spend the next few days in bed. Jeff and I are both finding escape in watching movies and me making lots of our favortie foods. I know he appreciates a good meal so I am trying my best to do just that on most nights.
Be blessed and I will try to get my act together here soon.