Thursday, August 29, 2019
It's a cloudy day here with rain showers off and on. This comes as a very welcome relief for me but not for our area farmers that are in the middle of harvest. I can hear the farm trucks still running trying to get the grain that has been harvested under cover so that it does not get soaked.
Yesterday I spent a good portion of the day in bed. I was having a rough time of it with major brain fog and pain. Jeff was so sweet and made dinner for us, folded all the laundry that I had done earlier in the morning and even put the laundry away. Yes, I am blessed with a wonderful and thoughtful husband.
It is just past noon here and I have had my coffee and shared half a peanut butter sandwich with Caesar. He loves peanut butter! I am trying to get motivated since I still have tons of apples and plums to process and Jaysn will be coming out later to get an air mattress from us to take with them to Rachel's sister's place for the long holiday weekend while they have a nice visit there with Rachel's sister and her mom. My brain fog is still here with me, but is not as bad as yesterday, so I am hoping I can get something, anything, done today.
With friends and family going out of town for the long holiday weekend, Jeff and I are stepping in to help take care of pets and watch out for our elderly neighbors. It got me to thinking about how we are here helping Uncle Bob and Aunt Norma with anything that they need and the close and loving relationship we share with them. Our love for them, and their's for us, is unconditional. They have become "family" to us and in many ways, they have become the loving grandparents to our kids that my husband's parents have chosen not to be. It is bittersweet. I am just so very grateful for the relationship we all share with them though and for the love, encouragement and support that Bob has shown my husband also. Watching my husband with Norma, and his gentleness with her, just melts my heart. I know that Norma, even with dementia, knows that Jeff loves her and will always treat her with the utmost respect and love.
I have been thinking a lot lately about life in general and how everything changes whether we want it to or not. It's hard to accept sometimes, but we just have to adapt to those changes, as hard and frustrating as they may be. It has been a rough week for me relearning those lessons and at times being in tears over them. I try to keep a positive attitude but sometimes the pain and frustration just get to me and I break down. I am learning to cope better though and come out of those funks faster and see them for what they are when I am in them. That is progress and I am proud of myself for doing the work I needed to so that I could get to that point.
I suppose I should wrap this post up and go take a shower. I'm still in a prolonged Fibro flare so showering tends to wear me out but is very needed. 😉 I always feel better after having taken a shower, but sometimes need to lay down for a bit afterwards. Such is life.